I wish to stop feeling like shit everytime.

because I have nothing else to lose.

A hot chocolate with Marshmellow can never go wrong..

A cup of Hot chocolate with marshmellow never go wrong after a long day of customers yelling at you. I am Very Thankful for Good In-charge and also Good Work friends.

Shall spend the week exercising again since I am getting well again and also spend some time reading.  4 more days till My graduation.

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Few days ago meet up with my FYP buddies. Really very happy cause its been so long since we meet!!! But dash not able to come though!! We should have another meet up soon!!! Miss them soo much!!!!!!

 YAY!! HAVE A BLESSSED WEEKEND!!!:)

Thoughts all mixed up.

Its 4am and here I am wide awake. Feeling pretty empty. Had a night conversation few days ago with an old friend about life, basically. Making me wonder a lot about other little stuffs that I have been avoiding. What does it takes to do what we love without having to worry about any other consequences that we might face. Sometimes I envy people who able do what they love. I choose to believe that this hardship I am facing right now will do good in the future. Every night, I questioned myself, What makes me happy? Until now, the answer always ends of with fear. Fear of losing. Fear of rejection. Fear of not getting what I want. Fear of being judged. But I know one day I will find the happyness I deserve because nobody deserve to be unhappy.

Sometimes no matter how hard to you want/wish to get back the old friendship that had long gone , You need to know that it takes two hand to clap.

Oh a side note, I wish I am more daring into making new friends. I tend to be very shy in meeting new people. Yesterday was a good example during work.


Gooodnight.

Hmmm maybe i hve never fall in love before..

Playlist of the night.

Well you're magic he said
But don't let it all go to your head
Well I bet if you all had it all figured out
Then you'd never get out of bed
No doubt
All the thing's that I've read what he wrote me
Is now sounding like the man I was hoping

To be

Keep on keeping it real
Cause it keeps getting easier indeed
He's the reason that I'm laughing
Even if there's no one else
He said, you've got to love yourself

You say, you shouldn't mumble when you speak
But keep your tongue up in your cheek
And if you stumble on to
You better remember that it's humble that you seek
You got all the skill you need,
Individuality
You got something
Call it gumption
Call it anything you want
Because when you play the fool now
You're only fooling everyone else
You're learning to love yourself

Yes you are

There's no price to pay
When you give and what you take,
That's why it's easy to thank you
You...

Let's say take a break from the day
And get back to the old garage
Because life's too short anyway
But at least it's better then average
As long as you got me
And I got you
You know we'll got a lot to go around
I'll be your friend
Your other brother
Another love to come and comfort you
And I'll keep reminding
If it's the only thing I ever do
I will always love
I will always love you
Yes you
I will always, always, always, always love
I will always, always love
I will always, always love, love

Climb up over the top.
Survey the state of the soul.
You've got to find out for yourself whether or not you're truly trying.
Why not give it a shot?
Shake it. Take control and inevitably wind up
Find out for yourself all the strengths you have inside of you. <

WORK WORK WORK WORK

Hi i have 2 pets. 2 Hamster. Montel and Honey. They make me happy.

Will be working this two weeks. Hope I have time for myself to take a break.

Blessed week!

Blessed week ahead. ^^

Movie with them today. STILL USING STUDENT PRICE^^

Dinner with my happy friends.  #thankful

MAY

 Just had a haircut today and a short catch up session with eric over dinner.

Had an impromptu meet up with my old friend for lunch and we talked about life few days ago. Ahhh I miss the times when I can just call up a friend and just meet over a cup of coffee. I need more of these, please. I love how we can just walk and walk and walk and talk about anything. Like i feel very comfortable talking to her about anything that's been going on in my life cause i know she is someone who will listen and understand. Thankful to have a friend like her.

Been very grateful lately with many nice line up that happened after DOC.  There are times that I feel very lost but I feel very grateful to have friends for meet up to make me feel less lonely. May will pass by fast with me taking up part time jobs here and there. I feel very lost if I have nothing to do. I think it still havent registered to me that I HAVE GRADUATED ALR. I still miss school everyday. How i wish i will never grow up. But I guess time will heal everything. Lets spam picturessss but before that, here's a very retarded video of us:)

Waiting for Avril Lavigne New music video premiering this 9th may!!!

Life

 Things will get better in time. Like it always been.

Thankful for everything thats been happening in my life. Good and bad.

GRADUATE LO

OMG OMG OMG CANT WAIT TO UPDATE THIS SPACE SOON!!!

I wish i am not so lazy to blog. There is so much things i wanna blog about but right now i am having this lazy bug on me. goodnight. life been good. I am thankful and grateful!

Thankful

Very thankful for so many things. Shall update this space later.

Hobby

Was talking to people about what should I do now that FYP is over. I guess I need to finally find something that I like and really invest my time doing it. Right now I am not sure but I guess I will eventually find something I like.

Thankful for them for being there for me when I literally feel like shit during my FYP.

Shall post more since I am so fucking free.

What now?

Its been quite a hell for the past 4 months. I'm so thankful for everything. I'm so thankful that everything turn out fine. So thankful for those who was there during the 4 months.

But what now?

To be 21st tomorrow.

Try harder naqib. I need to be more independent. I need to learn to cope with disappointments. I need to be able to learn from my mistakes. I need to learn how to shut up and carry on. Because life's goes on even without you.

Tomorrow its a different day

Lesson learnt.

Hobbies

The weekend is gonna be so packed starting tmr. AND this has nothing to do with FYP. OH GOSH. 

I shall bring my camera out today or tomorrow. I need to find back the things I used to enjoy.

So thankful to have met such wonderful people 6 years ago. Some of them we might not be on talking terms but Everyday I feel so thankful because they are the reason I'm still here today.

Have a blessed day ahead.

21 more days to the end of school.